No Countdowns

So Saturday night, I went to the Virginia Coalition concert (it was awesome!) and I looked around as I was surrounded by my very best friends in the whole world and was struck by the realization that I have to graduate.  Sure, I've known that the black robe was coming up faster than I wanted to admit, but this was the first time that it really hit me.  I realized that I didn't have many more nights like this one.  When I got back from Spring Break, I had a note on my white board, with a count down until our senior week in Hilton Head. Another senior in the house crossed it out simply writing "no countdowns."  I think we all desperately hope that if we refuse to count away the days, they may somehow go more slowly. 

As I sat over my dinner of Slices with my best friend Kyla, I told her I was surprised at where it was all going to end.  I think as a last semester senior you begin to realize what's really important.  Your group of friends starts to thin out as you make the decisions of who you want to stay an integral part in your life, and who will have to simply remain another facebook friend you keep in touch with  every once in awhile.  We begin to think about where we are going and what we'll be doing.  Boyfriends and girlfriends are faced with hard decisions, and more and more people seem to be rejecting the hook-up culture in favor of something more meaningful.  Something to remember.  Isn't that what we're all looking for?  Something to remember?

In a recent facebook message, one of my friends that graduated last year was relating the real world to me.  Basically, he was venting about how awful having a job is, and how wonderful it is to be in college.  I was reminded of the Billy Madison quote that goes something along the lines of, "Stay in school.  Stay as long as you can!"  And no matter how excited the members of my class may be to enter the real world, I know that each and every one of them is scared out of their minds.  Now we have to worry about things like health insurance and rent.  I even know when taxes are due now.  Plus, on top of it all, we have to deal with the uncertainty.  If you're me, you don't know what law school you're going to or if you'll be all alone in a big city for the first time in your life.  Some of my friends don't know if they'll have a job, and I'm sure there's at least one person out there wondering if they'll be able to eat next year.  Okay, so maybe that's a bit dramatic, but I think you get the point.  No wonder the graduating class gets senioritis.  It's a wonder we don't all just curl up in a little ball and hide under our blankets for the last semester. 

Comments

[dipti]

i think i know exactly what you mean. ive been in the same school since 1st grade and leaving it this year to go to college has been scary to say the least. when i heard from colleges abroad it finally hit me, that ill have to live on my own and worry about things like credit cards vs debit cards! i think thats why im staying at home for just one more year. hopefully next year ill be at Colgate. =)